Post-graduate, check. Newfound lazy days and freedom, check. Money for college and total preparation..nope, nowhere to be found. I am so thrilled to be going out on my own and being able to leave everything laying around if I please, go out as I please, and attend classes called "The Ancient History of Witchcraft and Magic" (yes, that is seriously one of my classes!) But the overwhelming rush of bills and statements has me in a daze. I realize this is all completely necessary if I ever want to take myself anywhere in life, but it also makes me wonder how some people do it. People with dire circumstances send themselves off to college all the time. People who struggle raise an entire family singlehandedly, all the time. People do hard things, everywhere and everyday. How am I ever going to summon that kind of strength?
No one ever really expected me to go to college, and to those antagonists I say, ha! I CAN and WILL do this on my own, in my own stubborn I'm-a-big-girl-now fashion. I will attend all of those dorm events, frat parties, study meetings and athletic games, and I will revel in the fact that in spite of many things, I am making my own way out into the world and so are thousands of people around me. I don't feel so alone in my journey anymore.
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Best wishes on "making/having it your way"! Powerful thinking & staying motivating, just two areas you stand head and shoulders above other students. Congrats on making the Dispatch's all-county soccer team! You had an amazing season.
ReplyDeleteThe only advice I can offer (from a writer): always keep writing, it will just be on a much larger scale now. Experience new things every day (not in a bad way! New classes, books, friends, interests, things to see if you're good at on a college campus!)
Did I mention, Write, Write, Write and write every day! Even if it's just a few sentances in a journal daily. You have a gift and such an amazing talent. Please don't put away the laptop (blog), journals, etc, you hsve such GREAT talent!
(on the scholarship check, if you still want me to mail it, thst's fine, didn't know if you'd rather pick it up?)